Friday, April 23, 2010

Who said that?

Metaphorically speaking.......................................

there was a twinge - actually a stabbing pain. Whose voice is that - who is speaking those words in that tone.? I don't know this person. I did but now I don't. A blanket of grief overcame me - a loss so profound my heart sank -
my head bowed -
hands folded -
silent thoughts spun in my mind - of resistance and fear.
Who can I tell -
after all, it was just a few words.
Words of revelation - eye opening revelation spoken defensively - confidently - even righteously.
I did not recognize this style of speaking from this person -
it is/was foreign to me.
Not anymore though,
the next time will be easier to hear,
or will it?



24 comments:

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

Unfortunately, probably not.

I often tell my clients that when someone launches a ball at you, you do not have to catch it. Of course, it still shoots by your ear and sends you a message. Put it down when you are able.

Take care Gail.

Gail said...

HEY BONNIE-

Interesting words of advice. I have a feeling that this will ebb and flow - it is part of the reality and I will put it down and or aside as best I can while still holding on to all the other words and tones that are good and familiar. "Thank you" for taking the time to share.

Loved to you
]Gail
peace......

Diana said...

Well I suppose anyone is capable of saying or doing anything for whatever reason. I guess if we keep this in mind perhaps words or something else won't be as much of a shock!
Love Di ♥

Gail said...

HI DI_

You are 100% right. thanks SO much.

Love you
Gail
peace.....

Cinner said...

Always on the lookout, I understand those feelings my friend. Sometimes I am surprised when these feelings arise, thinking I had long let them go. be well my friend. feel better.

Sniffles and Smiles said...

I like what Bonnie said...I think I'd play dodge ball :-) Very difficult when it has been a good relationship in the past...or so I surmise from your words...I feel so for you! You're in my thoughts! Love, Janine XO

Whitemist said...

Strange thoughts, but i was once told that God can speak to our hearts through anyone, even a donkey.

Where these burning words come from,
that so deeply pierce my heart.
their intent is to motivate,
teach,
direct,
not to harm.
How strange that love might have this form.

1022 Sea Shell Ave said...

that is deep


:)
Kim

Bernie said...

Words are very powerful, just make sure it is your power that you use, don't give it away my friend..
..........:-) Hugs

Gail said...

HI CINNER

"thank you" for your words of understanding.

HI JANINE

And "thank you" too for your support

HI JOEY

How strange indeed..... "thank you"

HI 1022

thanks for visiting and understanding

HI BERNIE

"thank you" I know what you mean


Love to all of you
Gail
peace......

Teresa said...

Oh the power of the tongue! It can heal us or destroy us, and hurtful words seem to dash so much deeper into our hearts, than the soft tender voice of the Lord.

Read the 'God Memorandum' for a hundred nights!!! Yes, a 100 and you will be just fine.

You are a miracle!

Gail said...

HI TERESA

"thank you"

I so admire your journey and I am honored to be a part.

Love you
Gail
peace......

Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Ah ha - Great post. Yeah, will it be easier to hear next time. Hmmmmmm.....

Thanks for sharing dear. Blessings.

Eileen said...

Gail, when I first started reading I thought you were talking about yourself.
Someone else? I think that's almost harder to deal with. You can't control what is launched at you, but you can control if and how you will accept it. But it's more the feeling of reeling off emotional balance that is going to take time to recover from!

If it's a very dear relationship, that's a hard one, because some of the trust and security gets chipped away. I've been there. Not a good feeling at all.
I know that 'who is this person?' feeling. Is this not the one person in the whole world I could count on? Where did this person disappear to?

I'll say a prayer.
Love to you,
Eileen

Gail said...

HI EILEEN-

Ph my, your words of comfort and understanding touched me SO deeply. "thank you" In time I will share about this person oh so dear to me and the changes that are happening.

Love to you
Gail
peace.....

Gail said...

HI JUST BE REAL -

thanks OS much for your kind understanding words to me.

Love Gail
peace.....

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Sniffles and Smiles said...

Hello, dear Gail...just stopping by to see how you are!! I hope you have a beautiful week! I'm so grateful to have such a wonderful friend like you!! Love, Janine XO

Andy said...

Hi Gail,

I'm not sure if this is the same thing at all but I remember, years ago, my sister. She was always so supportive of my being gay and then, during a general conversation she came out with 'Well, I wouldn't want my children taught by a gay teacher'.

Needless to say I was shocked. The hurt I felt was great. But, in time it passed. However, I know it never quite disappeared and I was always waiting for the next 'eye-opener' from her although, when they came, it didn't hurt so much.

If this is the same sort of thing then you are right - the next time will be easier to hear - or, rather than 'hear' I would say 'bear'.

Gail said...

HI JANINE-

It means so much to have you come back and check in on me. I am better - patient and understanding.

Hi Andy

thank you SO much for sharing your experience and yes it is quite similar to mine. I really appreciate your shared wisdom.

Love to you both
Gail
peace.....

Mark said...

Stay open ... although you may not at first recognize the tone and the impact at first seems strange and forceful you do know if you choose yourself to know ...
Love to you my friend.

Gail said...

HI MARK-

I know..... :-) AND "thank you"

Love Gail
peace.....

Wanda said...

I experienced this once, from someone I love dearly...the hurt it caused me was from their own pain. That was years ago, today the mutual love and appreciation is even stonger and more vocally expressed to each other.
Time heals.
♥...Wanda

Gail said...

HI WANDA_

thank you so much for sharing your personal story and wisdom. It is most comforting to know others understand and that in time all is healed.

Love Gail
peace.....