"GLAZERS"

The morning brought new light, new hope, cool dry air, beautiful colors and sounds of nature and a talk with a friend with understanding and knowledge. The type of person that "gets it" with few words needed to explain. Such a gift.
I am in a type of hardened glaze. I liken it to a kiln used for ceramic pottery which fires the piece of molded clay so it wont break. It also leaves a satin type finish, smooth and secure. My outside is smooth and secure. The kiln fired glaze covers all imperfections and so it appears that it is perfectly baked. I am baked to perfection. I like it this way. No chipping away to see what is hidden beneath, no need. It/I present well. People smile, no one feels obligated to ask, "what's wrong or are you okay?". The fired up glaze doesn't allow for it.


The kiln is not easy to step into. Once in, there is no getting out. Or so it seems. Which is exactly why people get in to the kiln in the first place -no way out. I suppose someone could cone along and know the glaze has to be cracked open and if you let them close enough they might just care enough to do that. Silently, under the glaze, the glazed over hope for that, but that's a secret. The glazed over see the imperfections from the inside it's just that no one else can see. The 'fresh from the kiln hardened glazed people' of the world are everywhere. If you are a "glazer" (new made up word), you can pick out other "glazers". When "glazers" make eye contact there is an awkward paralyzing, first to do a reality check and second is wondering if the other "glazer" is going to 'unglaze you or you them'. Facial movements and blinking and shoulder shrugs and momentum will decide the outcome. More often than not "glazers" pass eachother by, each questioning why. There are also the non-"glazers" that somehow know. They are the scariest. Another secret - the "glazers" want the non-"glazer" to chase after them, tackle them to the ground, restrain them and crack the glazing in pieces until it all falls off - and all the while the "glazer is screaming "NO, NO, NO!!" . "Glazers" fight against the very thing they need the most - it is the way of 'glazing'.

"Glazers", typically have been unglazed at various times in their lives. They are quite clear on when it is better to be a "glazer" verses not. Still, during 'glazing' periods it is also clear that they long to be unglazed. They convince themselves that this is the way it is suppose to be and that when the time is right the glaze will magically fall away and all will be right inside and out. The glaze is a defense, protection, security, false or otherwise it is necessary. The glaze is the ultimate mask and underneath is the true vision, face, and reality. Everyone needs a break from themselves and at the same time while in waiting or hiding the "glazer" hopes to be found and broken open. They imagine when the time will come when being a "glazer" is no longer necessary. They wonder who will see the glaze and ignore it and break through with all their might despite the "glazers" best effort at resisting. To not resist is always deemed a failure or lack of courage by the "glazer"believing they know what is best, and at the same time knowing that it is the glazing itself that provides a false security and strength to withstand what lies beneath.

So if 'timing' is the critical issue in glazing,please know, that the "glazer" just may not be the best judge of the right time to become unglazed. I wonder if any non-'glazers" that knows of a "glazer" would chase after them, wrestle them to the ground, restrain them, knock off all the glaze and help them stand up straight and tall without the glaze. "Glazers" around the world want exactly that. Remember, this is a secret, because every "glazer" you may know will insist this is not true. They will fight you like a caged animal. It is the way of a "glazer".

To "glazers" and "non-glazers" alike, - here's to the wrestling match!

Gail
peace.....