Thursday, September 16, 2010

House of Lies

The air is a bit damp tonight, following much needed rain storms.  The wind howled and the leaves shivered and were tossed about.  The force was magnificent.  I do enjoy the power of nature.  Autumn is approaching quickly and with certainty.  The colors are deepening more and more and the shadows continue to bounce off glass table tops and through windows and glass sliders.  I feel I am in a swirl of ever changing color and deepening.  I bow to the Master, surrender to the force, face the wind and dance in color. Despite the continuing pain of this recovery I move with courage,   and I am cautious yet determined.  

I wonder where strength will come from to face other life's mysteries that are unfolding.  I am watching a house of lies crumble - one escaped, one is still trapped.  I become the reason, the one to blame - it is not true.  I stay strong, outside the house of lies, with the light of truth visible - it cannot be darkened.  I find comfort in that amidst the fear for those still in the house of lies.  I surrender more deeply, believing in truth - light - love. And those no longer inside are free to speak and seek truth - and others are coming in to the light.  And the house of lies is weakened. This is a long time coming - I stayed in the light - I clung to the truth - I did all things with love.  
Still, there is an ache in my heart.  The house of lies still stands, weaker, but it still stands.  I have nothing more than truth and love.  Tell me that is enough.  Please. 
 


19 comments:

Cindy said...

My dear friend that is enough. you are enough just as you are. I think I may know what you are talking about or referring to. you be true to yourself and that is all you can do. My friend is still visiting, she is in quite a situation, I will tell you all about it when I call you. my back is very sore, so am not able to have the best of visits. ....On the news tonight at the university they have found some new gene that they think will help with the cure of M.S. Something to do with the Mylon....that is aLL they said....good to know research is being done. You continue with your courage and remember you are never alone. and that you are loved. hugs to you.

Jackie said...

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
~I Corinthians Ch. 13 Vs. 13

Gail...I don't know what your blog refers to...and I don't need to know that. God knows ...and He knows your heart.
This Scripture immediately came to my mind...to share. I hug you and hope that you know that I care.
Always believe in and cling to love...
Jackie

Diana said...

I believe that truth and love is always enough. If not, what is left right? Love Di ♥

Finding Pam said...

Gail, while I am not sure what you are referring to...I know that whatever it is that you will overcome and claim victory over it.

I am sending you prayers, peace and love my friend.

Gail said...

HI DI-

You are so right. ANd yes, it is enough.

Love to you

HI JACKIE-

I love that scripture so much. My Mom actually read that one at our wedding. :-) I will continueto cling to truth and stay in the light of love.

love to you

HI CINNER-

sorry your back is still sore. ouch!! I hope you are right aobout a cure for MS. WOW!!
And we will talk soon about what I am referring to in this post. Meanwhile, keep getting well, enjoy your company and know I love you.


Love to you all
Gail
peace, hope and healing....

Gail said...

HI PAM-

thank you so much for your love, prayers and your expressed confidence in me. WOW!!

Love Gail
peace, hope and healing.....

Tramp said...

I'm not sure what is troubling you my friend but I understand that watching nature's behaviour can help us to face what life throws at us.
I wish you the strength that you observe in the natural world.
..Tramp

Gail said...

HI TRAMP-

Thanks SO much - and yes, nature and all it's resources are a means to an end.

Love to you my friend
Gail
peace, hope and healing.....

Wondering Soul said...

Dear Gail,

I am so, so FOR you. Like everyone else, I have no idea of what you are referring to, but I can understand the pain and vulnerability and tiredness that makes it impossible to go into details.
I don't think I can quite convey how much my heart is covering yours right now. I want to just protect and defend and care for you. I'm so sorry for the hurt.

With you RIGHT NOW

WS
X

Gail said...

HI WONDERINGSOUL-

I SO appreciate the love and strength and protection and understanding you are sending to me, it means SO much, YOU mean SO much. I have to believe that the love and the light of truth will prevail and all will be free in time.

Love to you my dear and brave friend
Gail
peace, hope and healing......

p.s. I wrote on your blog post the 10 things that make life better but it didn't appear, crazy blogger!! :-)

Wanda..... said...

One can only remain true to themselves and have faith that things will work out for the best. Hope things get resolved Gail over time.

Sniffles and Smiles said...

Oh, Gail...there is such an earnest sadness in this post!! I do not know what it is about...but my heart aches for you...I send you HUGE hugs!! Love, Janine xx

Gail said...

HI JANINE-

thank you so much for your concern and shared hope. I am okay - it is a complicated situation from which I remain just enough detached to not get lost in the lies.

HI WANDA-

I too hope for resolve. And I know I am in a good place and being truthful and that is where I will remain. I so appreciate your thoughts.

Love to you both
Gail
peace, hope, and healing.....

Sniffles and Smiles said...

Just here to give you my love, and to let you know that you've been much in my thoughts!!! ~Janine XO

Gail said...

HI JANINE-

I SO love that you check in on me. It means more than words can convey. :-) I am okay -

Love and appreciation to you
Gail
peace, hope and healing.....

Lisa said...

Dear Gail,

I was thinking of you this morning and thought I would stop by for a "Hello". Some how I missed you had posted.

I am so sorry you are having troubles. . .Like so many, I am not sure what your referring too, but, know I stand with you.

I believe all there is is TRUTH and with truth comes LOVE. With Love anything is possible.

Love to you Gail,

Lisa

Gail said...

HI LISA-

thank you so much for your kind, supportive and loving words to me. I so appreciate it. :-) I am staying in the light of truth and the love that surrounds it - sometimes it is lonely here though - but it still is the right place to stay. Otherwise, well, I shudder to think....
love to you
Gail
peace. hope and healing.....

Andy said...

It is enough, Gail. It is more than enough. And, as you know, you need patience. Be strong.

Gail said...

HI ANDY-

Enough, indeed!! thanks SO much for your kind support and friendship.

Love to you my beautiful handsome friend
Gail
peace and hope.....