Thursday, September 17, 2009


I finally uploaded these two pictures of flowers Skipp bought me for our birthday and anniversary. Lovely, aren't they? Also, in the photo to the left is one of our favorite wine glasses - deep blue with gold moons and stars. We had a lovely week together - long rides, barbecue, wine and fun food, playing music and singing, movies, slept late and had our coffee out on the deck watching and enjoying nature's bounty. It was a very special, simple, loving time.

And so Autumn approaches - the colors are golden yellow with splashes of red and brown. The mornings are crisp and the evenings chilly. And the colors in our home - shadows of dark greens and yellows and borders of slate and deep purple dance around in the morning and early evening light. It is wondrous. I too have danced around some - as you all know I struggled with my wanting to set the stage for my daughter's love language - and felt quite righteous in doing so. The out pouring of love and support I received from all of you, my amazing friends in blog land, touched me so deeply and helped move me to a peaceful place, once again. And I thank each and every one of you. Once I let go of "my way" and embraced "their way" all doors opened - heart soared - voices sung - love was spoken - shown - felt - heard - understood - I know I stirred the emotional pot, maybe that is good every now and then - but for now, and a long time to come, I am not going to stir anything, - rather, I am going to simmer and rest in the love we share - receive it as it is offered - and give as I always have. It was time for a change, better said, a time for me to change. And I have - and so many of you helped me. Again, "thank you"

Love to you all

p.s. I have been a bit 'under-the-weather' since my neurologist appointment on Tuesday. I have not been able to comment and read all your wonderful blogs as much as I would like. I had a harrowing experience at my appointment - I was quite traumatized by it actually. I had a frightening spike in my blood pressure while there. The neurologist got very concerned and thus, so did I!! I went to my PCP right from there. He is so calming. My numbers lowered considerably by the time I got there. He is adding another medication to control the "spikes", which can happen with M S patients due to some type of false signal. Good Lord. So I am taking it easy, doing my exercises, walking outside, resting a lot and drinking lots of water as I adjust to the medicine for two weeks and then see how it is working and if I am tolerating it okay. Again, "thank you" all for your kind understanding. Oh, we did get the disability documents organized. phew.

Love, me.


Diana said...

I'm glad that you're dealing better with the kid situation. Just remember when they don't call or talk for awhile just call or talk to them. That's what I do. Otherwise all of these thoughts run through my head and it drives me crazy.
So sorry about your day at the doctor Gail. Just take some time to relax your mind and body. Just remind me of this when I need it!
And the week you spent with your husband sounded perfect. I would love to have a week with my husband just relaxing. Good for you two. Love Di

Eileen said...

I'm glad you are feeling better about things, now feel better physically too! I hope the new medication works out well for you.
I'm glad you are in a good place emotionally/spiritually.

I'm in a 'tizzy' right now with a situation with one of my daughters, but I'm not saying anything, and I'm trying to make my insides feel as calm as my outside seems.

Feel good, Gail.
Love you, Eileen

a corgi said...

flowers are beautiful and I like the wine glasses

that was scary about your blood pressure, glad you were able to get some meds to help control it a bit more


Bernie said...

I was wondering if you were ill or not as you always comment, am so sorry you have had a rough few days but am happy you are feeling a bit better.
I am very happy that all has been sorted out with your daughters, as you say stirring the pot once in a while can and usually does clear the air. Just loving yourself and accepting others as they are will make a wonderful change in your relationships....everyone can just be themselves....Luv ya....Hugs

Choices said...

Hi Gail,
So glad to hear that you have found
a peaceful place to be. I have learned that when we as parents are at peace, it helps our children to come to that peace as well.
The flowers are beautiful.
Take care of yourself.
Have a wonderful day and weekend.

Margie said...

Hello Gail
The flowers are beautiful.
It's great that you had such a wonderful week with your beloved.

I love your words, "I am going to simmer and rest in the love we share."
That is a wonderful way to live.

Take good care of yourself.
Sorry that you have been not feeling well.
Keeping you in my good thoughts.


Gail said...

You are so right about me calling them. ANd I have to remember toeep it positive when I call instead of the recent "ho-hums, poor me's"!!!
It really ws a wonderful week with Skipp. He is such a gentle soul. My big hippie-black foot Indian!! :-)

Love you DI-


I am going to trust/believe that th e new medication will work just fine!! :-)
Sorry to hear you are in a "tizzy". Relax, breathe and remember that you are the most ownderful Mom and Gram - "Umma"
Love you

Ya, scary indeed. Thank goodness y PCP knows me well and I immeidiaely calmed down.o god to see you.
Love Gail

I am trying to get back on track - I just need to pace myself. phew. And yes, it is so peaceful and loving when we all feel at ease to just "be". I really did stir things up. We are came through just fine. Alelluia!

Love you

Oh yes, it is SO true. When I became peaceful again so did my girls. It was so good for all of us to relax again.
Have a lovely weekend.
Love Gail

Gail said...

"Thank you" for your kindness and support. And for 'feeling' my words. :-)
Love and peace

Mark said...

I love where your spirit has taken you and the place that you are in right now! Beautiful, thanks for sharing. Hope you are well today! Have a great weekend.

Gail said...

My peqaceful resolve with my daughters is such a loving place and I am so happy we all arrived quickly. :-)

Always so nice to have you stop by. And you have a lovely weekend too.
Love Gail

cinner said...

Glad things are better, I like the simmer in your love. All things good. Feel better my friend.Big hug c

Gail said...


"Thanks" so much for your friendship and support.

Love Gail

Wonderingsoul said...

As always Gail, I am struck by such gentle honesty and acceptance.
I'm so glad you feel in a more peaceful and positive place and that you are ok... Those spikes sound quite terrifying and I'm not surprised that it knocked you for six. Still very glad that you are feeling so much better. You deserve every happiness.
Love it that you spent a week chillin out with Skipp and that you guys sing together. To be honest, I can think of nothing more bonding in a relationship than sharing music.
Lovely flowers!


Gail said...

such a lovely comment - I am truly humbled by your kindness and deep understanding on many levels.
And youi are SO right about the music - we love to harmonize. And dare I say, we do a version of Bonnie Rait's "Angel From Montgomery" that would knock your socks off! :-)

Love to you

The-Grizzled-But-Still-Incorrigible-Scribe-Himself! said...

Gail, sorry I missed this post yesterday. I've have a rough week myself, though nothing like yours.

I'm so glad you're now on BP medicine. That's really important. And you're doing the right thing, taking it easy and all, and setting a new attitude and outlook for yourself and your life. Rest, relax, exercise, eat well, and mind your doctors. You are just now embarking on the rest of your life…and you have a long, long way to go, so you want to enjoy the journey. This will turn out to be a real blessing. Just take care of yourself.

Gail said...

Hi Grizz-

Thank you so much for all your shred wisdom and heartfelt care and concern. I so appreciate it. And ya, both Skipp and I are changing/transforming if you will - so we can "live-love-laugh" and sing for many, many years to come.

I was on BP medication already, this one is an additional one to deal directly with the spikes. Meanwhile I am trying to just let it happen - be patient with the outcomes. I like results yesterday! :-)

Thank you for being you and sharing you with me.

Love you

TheChicGeek said...

Hi Gail :D
Ooooooo, what pretty flowers! You are a lucky lady! Happy Birthday to You!!!!! I have missed your day but I wish you the best year ever!

I'm so happy that things are working out with your daughter too :D All our relationships have their ups and downs but love is the great healer of least that's what I believe....hopeless romantic that I am...LOL

So sorry I have not gotten over sooner, I, too, was just not feeling well this week which is so unusual for me. I never get sick! So I am happy we are both on the mend! You are such a sweetheart and I'm very happy to have found such a lovely new friend.

Hugs and Love to you, Gail!
Have a Wonderful Weekend!



Gail said...

HI CHIC (Kelly)

Thank you so m,uch for your lovely words to me of encouragement, friendship and love. I absolutely adore you.
And I am so glad we are friends.

Love to you

Rose Marie Raccioppi said...

Dearest Gail, You are ever a bloom of life, of love, of understanding, of care. You gather and share bouquets of concern and faith. You are held in gratitude for all you bring to all who enter here. Good health, good feeling to be ever yours.

Gail said...

Hi ROse Marie

I am always so humbled by your heartfelt words to me. You remind me that we are all a gift, just as we are, offering our truth and selves as reason-rhyme-love-hope. It is all so tangible if we just stay true.

Love to you

Megan "JoyGirl!" Bord said...

I loved that video, and also love autumn. Thank you for adding warmth to my life through your words and positive energy. What you do matters, Gail, and you are so deeply loved by people (and energies) you haven't even met yet.

Be well!

Gail said...

HI MEGAN - 'Joy Girl"

"Thank you" for your lovely and kind words to me. I so appreciate your visit and your sharing your experience of me.
Love to you

Comrade Kevin said...

I am wishing you the best, my friend.

Gail said...

Hi Kevin -

"thank you"......

love gail