Glorious sadness.......

This is one of my all time favorite songs - for many, many reasons. I believe there is 'truth' in these lyrics and 'truth' is the theme upon which this blog is designed - and upon which my life is built. "knowing My It's" or as the blog is titled "KNOW YOUR ITS"....






This song touches me deeply. You?


"...........................and this glorious sadness that brings you to your knees" Imagine the words glorious and sadness together. I understand those words combined all too well. As we surrender to some deeper truth, some consuming reality, some life changing event it is glorious in it's opportunity and sad in it's often harsh demands. But ah!! I rise, rise up to face it - tears streaming - arms stretched out to whomever is watching, scream to whomever is listening, and whisper "I believe" - some times I falter, and bang my clenched fists to the ground, curling up and away from light and truth and challenge - but to what end? My despair changes nothing -


and yet I declare my right to feel despair, and rage and question "why"? I have my tantrum - I don't apologize for it either. It is exhausting but I tantrum until it is over and not one moment before. With swollen eyes and red face I collapse - I look a fright! Agonizing does that to a person. I feel empty now - relieved even - I can rest now - quietly and be comforted by all that surrounds me. Funny how we don't really recognize or acknowledge that which comforts us until we need comforting. Comforts are often taken for granted. My pillow feels softer, my sheets cool and protecting. My long hair swirls my neck and face like a veil of shadows that disguise. The faces of my stuffed animals look up at me adoringly each one cuter than the next. The pictures on end tables and walls of family and precious memories speak to me with reminders of what is mine. The sparkling seltzer with little ice cubes and a fresh lemon slices soothes and cools my lips and mouth and throat. There are arms to hold me and eyes to gaze into - there are words of support and love spoken and unspoken. The sun filters through Windows and sky lights and the wind sets the chimes in harmony. The scents of flowers and wet grass and the sounds of birds sweet voices and bulky frogs bellowing fill my senses. And so it is, the truth is still the truth - regardless of it's nature - and the arms of the angels extend out from every where and in every form. I need only to relax and be embraced.

And so I will do just that.

Love and comfort
Gail
peace.....