"The Blue Light and Two Chimes"

Since I am neck deep in the rituals of death and dieing my posts, as of late, reflect that. Today is a somewhat neutral day. The 'wake is tomorrow, the funeral Wednesday. The intense focus is so overwhelming. Today I am breathing.....................away from the heart of it all, although it is all in my heart. Carrying it here is different than being there. At times I am glad for the distance. At times I want to talk with people who know. I learned some new things. First, the chimes. In a Hospice setting, when one of the people dies, the staff rings two chimes, one at each end of the hall.
Also, although I missed it completely as I charged down the hallway that day and entered Kel's room, - the staff places or hangs a blue light on the door of the person who has passed. It is very bright. There is a covering over the one inch bulb and when removed it engages the bright blue light. The blue light let's others on the floor waiting for the blue light on their loved one's door, that the person in that room has passed.

My sister gave me one of the blue lights. At first I rejected it like I was being offered an eerie darkness. These feelings quickly dispersed and I took the 'blue light' with new emerging feelings of it's meaning and purpose. I hung the bright blue light on the "hope-tree' on a branch facing our front picture window. It is shining brightly. In the dark it can be seen a long distance away. It will slowly dim over the next few days and go out on it's own. Meanwhile it signifies that 'someone has passed', someone we love. I came to know that many people who love Kel have their own 'blue light' shining at their homes too.

I hope for me and for you that there will be many people that love us at the end and that 'blue lights' will be shining brightly to silently express that.

Not too soon though, later, ok?

Love Gail
peace.......