Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Pause

Dear friends-
I am in distress with this injured knee. It is so painful and quite debilitating because I cannot put weight on it - I am using a rollator in the house and it is still excruciating. It seems that muscle spasticity, strong upward spasms from MS that actually twist and wrench my knee have pulled the tendons and such quite badly. I can barley walk. My PCP ruled out other causes via x-ray and blood work as the reason for the spasms and subsequent injured knee. I see the neurologist today to see what, if anything can be done to lessen these wrenching spasms. Meanwhile as they continue, my knee wont heal and the pain and debilitation forges on. I am quite discouraged and sad. I feel so helpless as there is little I can do for myself. I wont be able to be on my computer much due to it's location and my overall distress. Pray for me as I continue to hold you all close during this difficult time.
I am also so sad that I cannot get to my Mom - I miss her terribly and I so want to be there for her. I wonder why this is so. Sometimes God really confuses me.

17 comments:

Diana said...

Oh Gail I am so very sorry for your pain. I will be praying very hard that there is something that can be done. Perhaps something that will help even more in the long run.
I will also keep your mother in my prayers. I understand how frustrating this must feel for you but please try to focus your energies on what needs to be done for your own healing. You can't be of any help to others until you get the help that you need. Please try to let me know what neurologist has to say.
Please focus on your own health and healing right now. I will pray in the meantime, Love you Dear friend, Love Di ♥

Tramp said...

Gail
There must be something you can do for this. Hope the neurologist could offer some help. Do you have something to help with the pain?
...Tramp

Cinner said...

Oh Gail, my heart just aches to hear this news, hopefully the neurologist will have some good new. I will miss you on here, so my prayers and thoughts are with you. don't lose your faith, hope you will be able to see your Mom soon, if you need to talk call me, love you much, I wish I could come and help, but know there is a heartfelt hug sent your way.

Shen said...

Oh Gail I am so sorry for your pain. I am keeping you in my thoughts...

Finding Pam said...

Dear Gail, I am sorry that your knee is giving you so much pain. I pray that God will ease your pain and suffering. Please keep us up to date on yourself. Can you wrap it in an ace bandage?

Love and Hugs to you,
Pam

Gail said...

Thank you all for your love and prayers and concern.

The neuro-doc says this is part of MS symptoms. /spasms - and can cause a lot of damage to surrounding tendons, tissue, muscle, joints etc.!!! ya think??

I have to ride it out, because muscle relaxers or anti-spasm meds are VERY dangerous for MS muscles so it is lots of fluids, warm moist heat, alleve or tylenol for pain, lots of elevation-rest-and gentle manipulation to keep a good blood flow and beyond that? it is what it is.
I am exhausted.

Love you all
Gail
peace and hope and healing

Wanda..... said...

Gail, I'm really sorry to hear of your distress. Would a massage pad help with the manipulation and blood circulation.

I do hope it clears up quickly. Try your best to stay positive!
♥...Wanda

Gail said...

hi wanda-


massage does help . Skipp does it and I have a nad held one with three soft wheels. but honestly? it is all so difficult to manage, regardless. sigh
thanks for your concern and thoughts
love gail
peace and hope

Bernie said...

Oh Gail I am sorry that you are in pain, and then the worry of your mother......eeeek!

Is there a way someone could push you in a wheel chair for a quick visit to see your mum, he may bring you some relief.

Spasms are so painful, I alternate a heating pad with an ice bag and it seems to help.

Keeping you and your family in my heart and prayers.....:-) Hugs

Teresa said...

oh Gail,
I am so sorry to hear you are in so much pain. You are in my prayers. I understand a bit about knee pain, but not the excruciating pain you are in. I will also keep your mom in prayer too, HUGS T

Lola said...

Gail...
big and warm Italian hugs to you :)
I hope you'll get better soon.
Please, keep us posted.

Cinner said...

Gail, if you are able please read my post and I have to say thank you.

Gail said...

HI CINNER-

I will definitely go over to your place and read your last post. ANd thanks for checking back with me :-)

HI LOLA-

thanks for azll the well wishes.

HI TERESA -

and thank you too for your hugs and prayers

BERNIE-

hope to visit my Mom next Tuesday or Wednesday w/Skipp - I will take the rolator, of course, and get to the stairs and with Skipp's help go up one at a time there are five steps.

Keep praying, please.....


love to you asll
gail
peace and hope.....

Lisa said...

Hi Gail,

I am so sorry to be reading you are in so much pain and distress. I will defently keep you in my prays. I do hope today you are doing better.

xoxo, Lisa

Gail said...

HI LISA-

thanks for your prayers. I am hanging in there all things considered.

love gail
peace and hope.....

Andy said...

Oh Gail. I'm so sorry to hear about your knee - on top of everything else that's been going on.

I do hope it gets better soon and you are back to your old self, so to speak.

With love

Gail said...

HI ANDY-

thanks for stopping by and for your kind concern - I am managing as best I can as I gently move through this time of healing - it is a long road - I am praying for patience, stamina and relief.

Love to you
Gail
peace and hope.....