I have shared many truths here and in doing so it seems that others, (some) have found a freedom and a strength to do the same. I wonder though, how all of you really are doing? I got to tell you that lately I sense a distance, or a lag in connection from some of my most avid followers. Yoohoo, do you see me? Have I done something to offend? Yoohoo..............Oh I know folks are busy and life demands our attention else where - there are just some folks I miss seeing - hearing from. Yoohoo.............
So I thought it was time to get back, perhaps, to the original design and purpose of this blog, "Basic truth". And the basic truth is ....I feel like folks have lost interest and therefore have slowly lessened or in some cases, ceased their visits :-( I understand.. So I guess I will just write, as i have, however it makes sense to me in keeping with the 'basic truth'..
I believe 100% that our truth denied is our life denied and to live that life of denial is an exhausting endeavor and it is never ever completed. I know that some of my truths and yours too are quite harsh. We cannot change the fabric of our designs, the experiences that are us are always part of us , good or bad it is ours to face, reconcile and honor. As October comes to a close, and some of my harsh "its" settle within - I realize how lucky I am to "know" and NOT need to hide or run from what I know. As much as the truth is tragic it is mine to behold. They blend with my celebration and victories, each with merit and purpose to be held and offered, and humbly shared.
As Winter closes in and the stillness overtakes my world I am content in my life to "be" as I am.Oh there are things I wish were quite different. I wish mobility was easier and without pain - I wish for more time with Skipp as his job has some long hours some days. I wish my Mom was not suffering. I wish my oldest daughter Kristie would find her way home. And yet I am truly blessed to have Skipp and my Mom and to be able to get around as I do. I am excited for Thanksgiving approaching and all our wonderful Holiday traditions. I love that Dolan calls me every day and that Jen is close by to be part of each other's day to day lives. We have wood for our wood stove and food in the frige and warmth in our hearts and our home. We have music and laughter and faith.........we have love, an abundance of love.....Amen
38 comments:
Hi Gail,
I don't know where everyone has gone. It has seemed a bit slow at my place lately too! But whatever the reason, know that I am always here. Facing my own it's and doing quite nicely Thank You!! We have a wedding to attend tonight, I am excited to be able to get dressed up and enjoy the celebration! I wish you a cozy weekend! Love Di ♥
Hello my friend, it is quiet in blogland. Some have quit blogging, others choose to read and comment rather than post. Like you I miss the connection with my blogging friends.
So happy you are doing well Gail, I met one of my blogging friends for the first time last Monday and she was diagnosed with in MS in 1988. She gets around very well, I wouldn't of known she had it Gail if she hadn't told me. She is careful walking of course and always wears flat shoes. You would of really liked her.
Have a great weekend....:-) Hugs
HI BERNIE-
I hear ya that blog-land is a tad slow and folks come and go. sigh....nNd I love that you met a blogger friend and it is good to hear she is doing so well with the MS. I always wear flat shoes too. :-)
Love you my friend
Gail
peace...
HI DIANA-
I know you are doing quite well, :-) and I feel you close. You are going to look so beautiful all dressed up for the wedding. Enjoy and dance.
Love you my friend
Gail
peace.....
Hi Gail, I think I have run out of stuff to write sometimes, and then I take a photo and then I have a post. This hot weather is still haning on here and I am so ready for a little cooler days.
I just deleted a few blogs that have discontinued writing. I am down to a manageable number to follow. I always am sad when a blogger stops writing.
You know I am always here.
Have a good weekend.
Peace and Love,
Pam
I've kind of been going through the motions with my blog. It looks like a lot of us are anticipating changes and feeling anxious or spent lately.
Hang in there
HI TRISH-
you are so right - lots of anticipation and anxious change for lots of folks. I know. I feel you withme always girl - nomatter what.
Love you Texas
Gail
peace.....
HI PAM- I know you are here, there :-) And some times I write posts and never publish them - it is a weird forum at times. I Just need to be true to me and all will be fine.
Love to you always
Gail
peace.....
Well, I'm here Gail and I see Di and Bernie, though the "Village" has lost a few of it's residents.
I haven't been posting as often as I would like, but I love to visit everyone. I know many bloggers that have taken short breaks, then several have just stopped without a word, never to return.
Personally, I guess I'm doing fine, for a 'senior citizen'. Have become involved with "mail art" which was new to me, but seems to have been around awhile.
I wish all of us the best health we can expect to have, a warm and comfortable winter with family and friends.
Wished we all lived closer Gail!
consider that we are all changing and bloggin is rather intimate, there will be ups and downs, just like our life.
I am also afraid that the current virus set out there is not making me a very happy camper...seems to be everywhere!
HI WHITEMIST-
I hear ya and I know....sigh. I guess I am feeling a bit lonely these days. oh well, huh? and are u speaking of a physical virus or a computer virus?? my computer got that awful virus and took several days with tech support to clear it. and sorry you lost that chile contest.
love you man
Gail
peace.....
HI WANDA_
and ya, you are right - the village has dwindled some. :-( I never heard of "mail art", sounds interesting. And yes, here's hoping we are all warm and cozy this Winter.
Love to you my friend with such a beautiful "nature-land"
Gail
peace.....
Gail
I've lost some steam for blogging for several reasons: mainly that I am not sure that I have useful things to say, I have always thought of myself as a listener rather than a talker and I became alarmed at how much time I was spending online, it seemed a sort of escape from real life and was becoming somewhat of an adiction so I am restricting time in front of a screen. I loved your comments about your father, to make someone smile every day is a wonderful philosophy to have, I left a comment about it but it went astray.
I'm still here in my own quiet way. Sorry, my friend, I know nothing else than to be me.
My best wishes.
...Tramp
HI TRAMP
"thank you" so much. Your taking the time to share with me where you are at in regards to blogging and so forth means SO much - SO SO Much. I respect andhonor yo, a you are, always.
Love Gail
peace......
hugs and 'pats' to "Lady"
Dearest Gail, You indeed have by example, by such open sharing, and yes, by your 'truth' have gifted each of us. Your expressed faith and joy are blessings bestowed upon any who read your heartfelt words.
I too, have taken an interlude. In my heart rests a known love among us. I have availed myself of the posts and acknowledge within the message conveyed. You have reminded us all that we are to ring the bell, not just stand at the door!
Love to you and yours dear friend,
Rose Marie
Dear ROSE MARIE-
I am humbled by your words to me. I love how eloquently you write - and how lovingly and honestly. I am honored to have you at my door no matter how, or if you ring or not, I feel you near.
Loving you
Gail
peace,,,,,
Hi Gail!
:)))))))) Thought I would send a super smile...and let you know that I'm still here....home...away from home....home....away from home (and 'away from home' has dial up....sigh....need I say more!)...But I'm still here. I love your visits and your comments....any chance you get to come and visit me is a welcome visit. I love your expression that you left at my blog...hands folded...eyes upward....how wonderfully peaceful and loving a prayer is that!! Continue to bask in the love that is with you and around you....and you know that I pray for your wishes concerning family to come true. Keep smiling....as you are doing. And thank you from my heart to yours for being a faithful follower. Receive this hug....uhmmmmm....and many many smiles from me to you.
Love,
Jackie
DEAR JACKIE-
Oh how I feel the love and caring in your words to me. It feels wonderful. I am so glad you took the time to come and see me - I love your presence. ANd I so appreciate the passion in yur life for all things beautiful, loving, true and honorable. Amen
Love to you
Gail
peace......
Hi again, Gail....I wanted to share a smile...because I can.
Hoping that your week is a wonderful one. Hugs AND smiles to you, my friend.
Jackie
HI JACKIE
SO wonderful of you to stop back and send smiles and hugs :-) "Thank you", I ma okay, yup, we went out to dinner last night w/friends, Mexican! We had fun "ole" :-)
Love to you
Gail
peace.....
Hi Gail,
I do appreciate your blog, please continue. It's been nice to start to become acquainted with you on WS's blog. I'm incredibly outgoing but also equally shy, and feel like I need to "learn" you better before I can talk to you. But for now, I can at least say that seeing snippets of your journey helps me feel like maybe mine is possible.
Thanks :)
HI FAITH
I am SO happy you came by. I feel honored. I Love how well you write on Ws's blog - you are so kind, wise, caring and real. I look forward to us getting to know one another.
Love to you
Gail
peace......
FAITH
if you go to my blog dated 9-4-08 and titled "James-Daniel-Jill" it is a good accounting of some ofmy "it's" and you will know more of what my journey is about. thanks.
love to you
Gail
peace.....
I do feel connected with you Gail... even if sometimes I don't stop by.
I think of you.
:)
HI LOLA_
thanks, you made my day :-)
Love you
Gail
peace.....
Hi, Gail...no reason for me to be here...just stopping by because I love you and wanted to say "hi!" You are always so honest and authentic!!! I think that's why we all love you so much!! Don't worry...I think a lot of people are just super busy!!! Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!! Love you!!! Janine XO
HI JANINE-
Oh ow I love when yo stop by to say "hi" :-) and say such loving and 'feel-good' things. You are wondeful.
Love to you always
Gail
peace.....
Hi sweetie, just popped in to wish you luck tomorrow with your medical. You will be fine. So happy that Skipp is driving you and you will be able to have a nice day when the medical is over.
Be well sweetie.....:-) Hugs
Dear Gail…
Just wanted you to know that I'll be thinking of you today and trust all will go well. Remember, it's a heath report, not the roadmap of your future. Your life is still your life, and get get to say how it is lived and enjoyed. Also know that a prayer has already been said, first thing this morning. Finally, don't even stop expressing yourself in terms of truth, for truth not only gives strength, it also sets you free
HI GRIZZ-
Thank you SO much for stopping by to let me know you are with me and praying for me. I get so nervous before I go. sigh..... And I hear all your words of wisdom and truth and I am taking heed.
Love to you
Gail
peace.....
HI BERNIE
I love that you came by to wish me well and send your love and prayers. It means so much to me. I do get myself so nervouse and then once I get there I calm down, I have been going to my doctor over 20 years and he is a real good guy. phew....
I will email you.
Love to you my friend
Gail
peace.....
Oh, Gail, I've been a bad blogger. Well, I'm sick of Blogger and the problems I've been having, but that's not the reason I haven't been around the past few weeks, we were away on vacation.
I am going to try and post more, and my husband promises when he has the time he will try to fix my problems (he tried once before but I think he made things worse!). It's hard though because it's not like it happens all the time so it's hard to explain what is wrong! I'll tell him my pictures won't load, but then when he tries it's fine.
Anyway, I was thinking about what you said about 'truths' and I was wondering what your feeling is about something I've been feeling/thinking about.
I was thinking about abuse victims and how many of them have the same feelings, and also many encounter the same problems later in life. But my question is, are you an abuse victim if you don't feel like an abuse victim? If it seems easy for you to put those episodes of your life behind you and go on without those episodes weighing you down, or if you don't suffer the same as some abuse victims, how victimized were you really then? And if you do get upset or depressed about things later in life, how much of that is 'normal' depression, and how much is 'residual'? Is it a Blessing not to feel so scarred or is it denial? These are just some things I've been thinking about lately and I'd like your thoughts on the subject.
Anyway, so nice to hear you thinking about the future and the Blessing of family! I love the month of November and Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday!
Take care, Gail.
Love to you,
Eileen
PS ~ LOVE what Grizz had to say to you! God Bless!
No lost in interest on my end. Just lost of balance in my daily activities. My work has taken over much of my time. Seems to be leveling out so I should be able to visit with some normal frequency.
Love you!
Hi MArk-
I am so happy to se you her as your presence is always so wonderful. I understand about the demands of work and I also know we are "connected".
Love to you my friend
Gail
peace.....
HI EILEEN-
I am thrilled you came by. I have missed your validating wisdom. i DO understand and also I feel we have a bond that knows no time or distance. It is real and wonderful. :-)
I didn't realize that you are unaware of my abuse history - so to answer your question, "Yes", I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse by a teacher and a bit later in life by Roman Catholic Clergy. If you read my post dated 9-4-08, and titled "James-Daniel-Jill" it will give you some insight. I have come through and beyond te horror and understand that facing my truth freed me. I so appreciate your loving words to me.
I hope you get your blogger issues resolved and "Thanksgiving" is my most favorite holiday too.
Love to you always
Gail
peace.....
Thanks, Gail, for your thoughts, and, yes, I did know your history, that's why I wanted your input.
It's just something I've been thinking about. I've been wondering about how some victims seem to come through without too many scars, and I know some people personally who never got over that hurdle (drink, and drugs, cutting, and all sorts of self-damage until eventual death, all so sad). And I know there are many different forms of abuse, so I know that plays a big part too.
I was talking with some friends and relatives about how many of us still have very fond feelings for our abusers and I was wondering how that played into the feeling of being a victim of abuse. Yes, there was abuse, but maybe the relationship you had, or the remaining good feelings you have for the abuser somehow doesn't make you feel victimized.
There's no feeling of outrage,it's more a feeling of "Wow, that guy was sick" and we sort of feel sorry for him.
I don't know, it's all so deep.
Anyway, thanks so much for your thoughts on the subject.
Love to you,
Eileen
Hi EILEEN-
I think that regardless of how I or any victim may or may not feel about their abuser the challenge to be well in spite of "it" is always on us. People go to great lengths to separate themselves from themselves up to and including death, just like you wrote about. I was able to take the journey to self and face my own truths, its, and own them as parts of me, not all of me but parts. In order for me or anyone to be loved they have to love all of them-self no matter what the "self" is. This is way more complicated than this brief reply but I wanted t shre with you a bit of how I think it works.
Love to you
Gail
peace.....
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