Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Getting rid of a stain

Hello to my amazing blog friends.  I chose to delete the last post.  It felt like a stain - a stain I didn't want to see any more.  All of you who commented so lovingly, and honestly, and compassionately, I am forever grateful.  All of you truly helped me continue along my healing journey and grief process.

I still hurt but it is very manageable.  :-).  Loss is suppose to hurt and getting over a loss takes time and I am on my way.  Still, I felt the post itself was a stain - and I take that as a good sign of progress.

I spent the afternoon with my Mom today - brought her home made chicken soup and also a roasted chicken dinner for tonight with sweet potato, roasted carrots, turnip casserole and cranberry sauce - all of her favorites.  She is doing well - her new normal is less than before she went in to the hospital.  She tires quickly, moves a lot slower and requires assistance with daily tasks - but all in all?  She is doing fine.  I say this with the deepest gratitude and joy. Praise be...

Skipp and I are still savoring and enjoying our time together.  We laugh heartily every day, many times.  Glorious.  :-)

And so once again, I say "thank you" to all of you, for all my blessings and for being able to feel what I have a right to feel.  I feel love, sadness, joy, fear, blessed, doubt, passion, understood, misunderstood, and the full spectrum of emotions that life demands.

Still -it was time to get rid of the stain from my blog. and maybe in doing so it wiped some of the same from my heart.



17 comments:

Judy at Peace Be With You said...

The meal sounds yummy. As for the deleted post, please don't worry, both about having posted it or about deleting it. We all love you.

Gail said...

Hi Judy - thanks for visiting me :-) Did u read the post I now refer to as a "stain"? It was about a friendship that ended and how hurt I was. I felt the situation had enough 'air time', ya know?
And I am so glad I am loved by all of you!! :-)
Love Gail
peace....

Jane said...

Hi Gail, I understand and won't give it another thought. We all work through disappointment and hurts in our own way. My daughter very recently broke up with her boyfriend (we love him and really thought he'd eventually become a permanent family member - I still have my fingers crossed) and she needed to do a LOT of venting to get through it - we & all her friends are exhausted (lol!) but we love her and were there for her and she's thankfully feeling better. If you have the right support system, you can work through anything life throws you. Take care xo

Bernie said...

You realized it was time to let go and move forward, good for you.
Glad your mum is doing okay and the meals you took over has made me hungry. Take care my friend, stay strong.....:-)Hugs

Diana said...

The nice thing about Blogging and having Blog friends is all of the WONDERFUL support and caring that we get. It makes me realize that there are people all over that really care about our well being. That's an awesome thing Gail.
As for you, did you do all of that cooking? I can't hardly get through a box of Mac and Cheese anymore!!
It's funny, I love to eat but I hate, hate, hate spending my time cooking and cleaning up after!
If you cooked it Gail, my hats off to you!! Love Di ♥

Gail said...

@DIANA - oh yes, you are so right. The support and love from our blog friends is wonderful. :-) And yes, did make the soup and the meal but with Skipp - he is the "kitchen-staff' :-) I would really struggle to do it myself but together we are amazing. thanks SO much DI - I love you

@BERNIE - yes, letting go and moving forward Bernie - I am so glad my Mom is better - and I appreciate your care and love so much

@JANE - I truly understand about how you feel your daughter's loss. I hope she heals and loves again. And like you said, with love and support we can work through and make it through what life hands us.

Love to you all
Gail
peace.....

Finding Pam said...

Dear Gail, no reason to apoligize for that post. It is hard to understand when a friend hurts us.

Lifting you up with prayers and love.

I'm glad that your Mom is better. You are an amazing daughter.

Gail said...

HiPam
thanks for your continued love and support, means SO much to me. It is cool and bright and sunny today - all is well :-)
Have a wonderful weekend
Love Gail
peace....

Whitemist said...

What can i say Gail, life forever changes. To keep those who are meaningful and let go those that are not is important...
but you might change your mind about me after this...
i have been mean to you because i got tagged in a fun Meme - i also tagged you - if you want- learn a bit about me (useless facts by the way) and may be some interesting questions for you...
http://joeyksplace.blogspot.com/2012/03/ive-been-tagged.html

Wonderingsoul said...

I missed your last post and so I'm not sure about the friendship that you lost... but I'm sorry because I can see that it hurt you so much. I am however, happy to hear you coming to terms with the loss and embracing the process. You are such an incredible person Gail. I am constantly struck by it. Time and time again.
Thank you for the inspiration you provide and the love you so freely give.

xxx

Gail said...

@WONDERINGSOUL- thank you so much for your loving support and validation, it means so much. I think you ar so brave and to hear that I inspire you humbles me beyond measure.
Loving you always

@WHITEMNIST - thank you so much for tagging me and I will go check it out over at your place. and thank you too for your kind understanding.
Love you man...

love to you both
Gail
peace......

Amanda said...

You are strong Gail - to realize where you are in this process. Thinking of you and hoping you continue on like you are.

With love,
Amanda

Gail said...

HI AMANDA-
thank you for your kind support. Ind continue on, I am :-)'

Love to you
Gail
peace.....

TheChicGeek said...

Hi Gail :)
Oh, I'm sorry I missed your post but it sounds like you aired your feelings and that is a good thing. The only way we heal is by getting it all out.
I have never come to thank you for the Christmas card you sent me. You are so sweet to have thought of me and taken the time and trouble to send me a handwritten card. That's just the type of person you are though, such a treasure. Thank you. You touched me, made me smile and shed a happy tear. What a blessing.
So I am here to send you some love from California and always the very best of wishes.
Take care, Gail :)
Love and Hugs and all the Good Stuff!
xo
Kelly

Gail said...

CHIC GEEK - My favorite California girl.

I was so happy to see you here today. Your kind understanding and love are a gift to me in Spring. So glad that the Christmas card was well-received. It truly was my loving intent.
Love to you
Gail
peace.....

Jackie said...

Hi Gail...I've been away for a while and I've missed reading your posts.
I wanted to say hello and to let you know that I'm thinking of you and Skipp...and I hope that this Easter season brings you nothing but wonderful and blessed joy.
Absolutely!
Hugs and love,
Jackie

Gail said...

Hi Jackie -
I have missed you too. So glad you stopped by. "Happy Easter" to you and yours and big hugs to your Mama and Daddy.
Love Gail
peace.....