Monday, September 17, 2012

Closer to freedom.....

In my life - so much to recall, hold dear, celebrate, mourn, rage over, laugh over, cry about, scream loud, sigh gently, love and on and on......   Below are some random pictures of our world here in North Guilford , CT.  Oh, the memories.... first is a view from the front window in Winter, second a view from the back and side in Autumn, third - one Mother's Day out back, me, Mom and Sis,  fourth is our Christmas tree and lastly, the Winter we first got our rescue dog, Gracie Blue.
. As we transition from our home the adventure is bittersweet.  Life has made it clear that our time here is coming to an end and our golden years will be lived out in Clinton - in my Mom's place.  Divine intervention I believe. We are redoing the kitchen and bathroom and putting in new floors and carpeting.  Meanwhile we are downsizing and sorting through all our stuff.  Quite an overwhelming task.  We cry and remember every day some facet of our blessed years here.  So many were celebrated, enjoyed, helped, fed, clothed, given warmth and a place to rest and find solace and love, music and laughter, wine and peace. We loved deeply and honorably and cared for one another during the best and worst of life's challenges.  Holidays were wonderful and bountiful and delicious and full of love, hope was alive no matter what, even when I was diagnosed with MS, - The miracle of forgiveness graced us from years ago, and relationships were healed and renewed.  Storms were survived and times of smooth sailing bestowed and enjoyed and never taken for granted.  This home has served us and many so well.  Leaving is difficult and heart wrenching and yet our new world, life, adventure is one of freedoms on many levels.  Freedom to live within our means comfortably and humbly, freedom from worry about bill collectors and banks interfering with out peace of mind and security, freedom from long hours at work creating the freedom to "be" together more which is all we really want - our time together.  My sister wont be lonely and I will never be alone.  And, in time, as years go by, when either one of us passes on the other will be fine in our home - affordable and manageable.  So now is the time to make this transition when we are able and in charge of outcomes, for the most part, and knowing there are no guarantees.
Every day there are "Changes" which brings us one step closer to freedom, yes, one step closer.    

22 comments:

Judy at Peace Be With You said...

Gail,

You are blessed with lovely memories and freedoms to come. I wish you caring supporting winds to carry you along in your new passage.

Love,
Judy

Gail said...

Hi Judy - - "supporting winds", beautiful blend of words you wrote that lifted me gently, "thank you".
Love Gail
peace.....

Lola said...

I love the pics Gail.
Enjoy FREEDOM.
You definitely deserve it.

Andy said...

Well, life has a way of working things out and it seems you're on your way to a better time.

I have never really had the attachment to a place, even if the memories have been good. I always look forward to the next move and am nearly always ready for it - and, often, excited about it.

I'm sure that this new place (or is that 'old' place) will be just perfect now.

My best wishes to you all.
Andy

Finding Pam said...

There is comfort in knowing you will always have a home. I admire the way you are embracing change. You are blessed to have had a home with so many good memories. Those very memories will sustain you.

Is Chip moving with you?

Peace and love,
Pam

Gail said...

@ LOLA - thanks for stopping by - and yes, we will revel in the freedom in time.

@ANDY - a new time for sure, better too but bittersweet. Thanks ANdy

@PAM - hi there, and "Skipp" (not Chip)
:-), is my soul mate - we are so doing this adventure together as we do all else in our lives - I wonder why you thought otherwise, huh!. All of my [osts reflect our loving marriage and years of happiness. So, yes, we are moving on to freedom together.

Love to you all
Gail
peace....

Diana said...

What a beautiful post Gail, I love your photos. It can be overwhelming feeling all of those memories from the past but ultimately it helps with the healing. Love to you Gail!
Love Di ♥

Gail said...

HI DI - thanks for visiting. I miss folks from our village, seems so many have become distant.Happy Autumn!
Love Gail
peace....

Tracey said...

What a beautiful post, Gail. I am happy for your freedom & look forward to your new memories in your mom's home. But mostly I am glad to her that your sister is near so you'll never be alone. Remember, home is always where your heart is. :-)

Love, me

Marilyn said...

Wow, Gail! I can only imagine how difficult this transition will be, but you are facing it with grace. Living comfortably in our older years is so important.

Gail said...

HI MARILYN - comfortable is the key word and second only to free. Yes, comfortable and free, Amen.
Love Gail
peace....

Amanda said...

How is your transition going?

My aunt lives in Clinton, and has for most of her life - and it is so absolutely lovely there. I hope you're able to get to the beach - it is my very favorite part :0)

Gail said...

HI AMANDA - Clinton, Connecticut? Really? Perhaps we can connect. And yes, we are a mile from the beach - will drive down there often for sure. So beautiful.
Love Gail
peace.....

Eileen said...

Beautiful post, beautiful sentiments, beautiful photos, beautiful songs! (I've been singing one of them to EĆ³ghan a lot lately.)
I know you and Skipp will be fine, and I'm glad you feel that this move is right for all of you at this time in your lives, and I know that along with all your cherished memories, you will be taking all that love, all that friendly welcoming hospitality, all that warmth, that haven that is "HOME" ~ all that goes along with you. For it wasn't the four walls you lived inside of that created that wonderful atmosphere, it was YOU. YOU are HOME. No matter where you reside, Gail, you are home.
Love and Prayers,
Eileen

Gail said...

HI EILEEN - "thank you", your words inspire and humble me. My truth known by your heart is a gift I cherish. I am overwhelmed by you in the best of ways.
Love Gail
peace....

Jackie said...

Your post is a beautiful one, Gail...in so many ways.
I'm thankful that you feel peace and healing...what a wonderful blessing for you and yours.
I'm sending you great big hugs...hoping that you continue to keep that smile going. I know that you will.
Hugs and love,
Jackie

Gail said...

HI JACKIE - thanks so much for visiting and sharing in this amazing adventure.
Love Gail
peace....

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Rose Marie Raccioppi said...

Your words and the many visions you share, of moons past and those yet to come, are received with heartfelt gratitude. JOY is what you bring... a life lived, shared, known, and yet IS ~ Inspired Spirit. LOVED you are dear friend.

Gail said...

ROSEMARIE - thank you for your shared heart of all that 'is', known' lived and loved.
Love to you always
Gail
peace.....

Rose Marie Raccioppi said...

41hdolrievDearest Gail,

Knowing you, your valor, your love, your grace of BEING has been and is a blessing received. Thank you for all your sharing, all your knowing and your most endearing friendship.

Much love,

Rose Marie

Gail said...

ROSEMARIE - ours is a rare find, a treasure to cherish, a promise to keep.
Love Gail
peace....