looking down is to be ashamed or despairing - to look straight ahead is to be of courage and to look up is to be of faith

As I walked in to my Mom's home today I was taken back at how I 'saw her', it was so quiet, and stifling hot, her head was down, her chin almost on her chest, her glance when she heard me was one of sadness, blunted in affect,  as if lost.  I was paralyzed for a moment as the depth of her demeanor settled in to my heart and spirit - I felt heavy - scared - painfully aware.  I said "Hi Mom"  She looked up and appeared startled - and said "oh, you're here, I didn't know you were coming."  (we had spoken that morning about my bringing lunch).  I softly said, "well than it's a good surprise" - and she smiled.

and she is, still, so beautiful.

And so I shared with her, that to look down is a place of despair, to look ahead is a place of courage and to look up is a place of faith.  She felt comfort tn these words - I felt I helped, in a small way, I helped.  I feel and I know of her distance - she is quiet and sad - at times surrendered with moments of strength and hope.  Her eyes although bright blue are shadowed and gray in hue.  I feel too and most importantly the love in her heart.  It surges up and out and through the shadows, travels the distance with a genuine and natural flow - I embrace it - I embrace her - with all my might.